your heart wont heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

memories

2004-11-21T09:52:00.000-08:00

some people are just really dumb. how about they just be honest for once? if you feel a certain way, then why not just say it. keeping it to yourself just makes things worse, for the person and everyone else around them. talk about being selfish. i dont care anymore. i*M DONE trying.

let me sing this song for you.

2004-11-05T16:16:00.000-08:00

ahhh hahaa. my parents are so lame. hahahaa!

o*Side!

2004-10-29T22:52:00.000-07:00

whoo*HOOo!!! oceanside beat vista tonight!!! 17-15. it was such a close game... such a good game. for a couple minutes i thought vista was going to beat oceanside! but whoo*Hoo... o*Side came through! heck YES!! i love oceanside. ahh haha! gosh. i saw my friend megan tonight... and i saw colin. and gosh... i miss it...

3 chEErs fOr lOve

2004-10-26T20:59:00.000-07:00

Love is anathema to logic. Love is aimless revolution. Love will cure the phobia, & instills an inner peace. Love is lateral and wild. Love will form a laughter line from every troubled frown. Love is nature's prozak without the coming down. Love is an umbrella when there isn't any rain, an aromatic massage when there isn't any pain. Love is weeping eye to eye. Love is as -stubborn- as the stain

useLess r0mancE

2004-10-26T18:20:00.000-07:00

so i stayed home today because when my dad woke me up i was feeling worse than i did last night. LAAME. but whatever. i got to sleep in until 1:30 today. score! i read a lot of harry potter today. because when i am sick thats what i like to do. and i read some interviews with jkr. that was nice because i found out some more things concerning future books. whoo*HOo. i am so excited for harry

take my hand [dont let go]

2004-10-24T13:51:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh. homecoming was so much fun last night. everyone looked soo good. oh gosh. we have so many awesome pictures. yeahhh cant wait for another one of these nights. haha! which reminds me. we need to start planning for six flags... yeah!! hahaa

you are my sunshine...

2004-10-23T10:35:00.000-07:00

today is homecoming. and i am not ready. but tonight should be fun. and i am excited.

i caNt teaR yOu fROm thE dRugs

2004-10-21T21:32:00.000-07:00

i saw a hoT boy in the mall today working in Hot Topic. oh boy. he's gorgeous. i had a sudden impulse to kiss him.

heLLO cOLLege

2004-10-18T21:02:00.000-07:00

i want to be a doctor when i grow up

chOke On aLL yOur wOrds yOu saiD

2004-10-17T01:23:00.000-07:00

tonight was good. my day was not. i tried to keep myself busy... i went to the pound and found a dog i want to get, but man. my day sucked. but tonight. tonight was good. i headed over to megans, and god. i love that girl! it seriously, well its exactly what i needed. whoo megan. you're a great friend! heck yes!

johnny hollow

2004-10-13T17:16:00.000-07:00

you tOok the sAdNess frOm mY eYesyOu wOre a c H a r M i n G d i s G u i S eYou toOk the trUth with all your Lies you took your hat offand untied mY bOnNetandyou took my bodywhenyoudidn'TeVenwAnt it yOu wOre a siLiCone smilethAt buLLshit doesn'T pasS as sTyLebuT I was blinded all the WHILE you shook my confidenceandfound my wEakest boneandtOOk a piEce of methatshouldhavebeenmyown you toOk my

whoo!

2004-10-12T21:39:00.000-07:00

who is interested in a book club? talk to me for more information

dont take my heart

2004-10-12T17:57:00.000-07:00

you. suck.

dont break my heart

2004-10-10T10:22:00.000-07:00

whoo! last night ricky took me out. and we had a marvelous time. hahaa. first we went out for sushi. now, i*M the most PICKY eater in the whole entire world. and when i saw sushi it was like omgoodness! whoa. cuz i have never had sushi before. and i mean, i figured i would die if i ever had it, because its raw fish. even though thats absolutely not correct, i still figured. but heck. whatever.

dont throw it away

2004-10-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

whoo*HOo i went shopping with megan today! it was terrible fun! gosh. shopping should be a weekly ritual! wowza! ahh. i tried on the best bra in the whole entire world! holy crap!! i want to go back and buy it, because its my favorite. and its red. SPICY! lol. goodness, i sound like megan. LOL! but seriously. this bra. is. hot. hahaa! Do, Do you, Do you know?Do you know how long I've waited

:: heres a secret ::

2004-10-06T21:43:00.000-07:00

i'm craving for a romance

y a y

2004-10-05T21:04:00.000-07:00

i am so excited for friday!

did you know i missed you

2004-10-03T18:10:00.000-07:00

oh god. this week was absolutely horrible. by thursday, i had a complete breakdown. tears and everything. a c o m p l e t e mess. luckily, friday, third period, i was able to go talk to someone, and it seriously helped me out sooo much. but i mean, have you ever had a meltdown? just a complete meltdown? usually i am able to handle a lot of things that happen to me... i mean megan says to me

. .h o m e c o m i n g. .

2004-09-29T19:21:00.000-07:00

yeah, so what. the big night's coming up in less than a month. yeaah. homecoming is October 23rd people. crazy. that just goes to show we really are back in school. ahh. hahaa. blah blah blah blah blah. i honestly dont even know if i want to go to homecoming anymore. i was going to go, because i was just going to end up hanging out and dancing around with megan the whole night, and we were

in love and death

2004-09-29T18:52:00.000-07:00

dude. i bought the new used cd yesterday. holy fuck. i fucking love this cd. its so fucking good! fuuuuuck yes! just look at me[look at me now]i*M a fake i*M a fake i*M a fake fake fake fake

. .listen closely. .

2004-09-27T17:07:00.000-07:00

who wishes they could be braver, bolder, stronger?

k i s s i n g y o u

2004-09-25T14:21:00.000-07:00

i love our late night talks, that consist of nothing but you and me. this is what defines beautiful. me and you. you are absolutely wonderful, and i wouldnt change a thing. i love you more than you could possibly imagine... theres nothing i wouldnt do for you. nothing.

...while i still believe...

2004-09-24T23:35:00.000-07:00

lalaa i love hanging out with megan!!! hahaaa! getting ready for football games, getting wild and crazy AT football games... and our nice deep talks in my car. way freaking fun. whoo*hoo. i love fridays. 4 days. fuck. YES!

for you

2004-09-23T18:28:00.000-07:00

we play our roles in this tragic love affair,but i*M So tired of this scripted romance

fold me in

2004-09-23T18:25:00.000-07:00

funniest thing happened today... ricky kicked patrick while we were crossing the street to walk to our cars, and patricks binders flew, and paper fell everywhere. i think i died from laughing so hard, it was great.

you say hello...

2004-09-21T18:28:00.000-07:00

my ring fell to the ground today. it symbolizes my love for you falling farther and farther out of reach. i've been talking to megan a lot lately about him, and gosh, i just... i dont know. after last night, i just am giving up. why am i holding onto something that he could care less about? i've been so scared to let go, but now i*M just so scared to hold on. look at what this does to me. i get

mostra a tutti il mio cuore

2004-09-16T15:49:00.000-07:00

yay! its thursday, and for this week, it signifies the END OF THE WEEK! this weekend is going to be BUSY! tomorrow i have to do my homework for the weekend ((which surprisingly isnt too bad)) and i have to CLEAN MY ROOM! ahh! that is so lame. but then i*LL see my best friends tomorrow. yay! i love those girls! saturday is my party. oh boy. i still dont even know who is coming. hahaa!! and on

yo.

2004-09-13T15:05:00.000-07:00

i*M having a birthday party this weekend... on the 18th. ((thats saturday)) so yeah... if i havent told you about it... dont think i havent invited you. i just dont remember who i've told, and who i havent. so ummm yeah. call my house to get directions, or stop me in the hallways at school... that way you know where my house is. cuz that would probably be of some use. hahaa.

heres a question for thought

2004-09-12T22:40:00.000-07:00

do you believe in second chances?

||L|| ((O)) \\V// ||E||

2004-09-12T13:38:00.000-07:00

Love is heart that can become a broken puzzle if torn apart. Love is a dagger forced into a poor lonely soul that can break you or make you whole. Love is a game, shame, lame and a name. Love is a new life and a knife. Love can be like death, it can give or take your breath. Love is a sadness, a sorrow. Love is a new day tomorrow. Love is distressing, depressing and obsessing. Love is glory and a

get the feeling that you're never all alone

2004-09-11T13:31:00.000-07:00

yeah. last night was rather lame... but i had a good time at the same time. the game was i dont know. i didnt pay attention to the game at all... except when me and meg looked for jordan after half time. buuuut thats it. all i know is that i cheered at the end of the game because we won. and that is my support to our football team. whoo*hoo. but dude. there was so much drama last night. oh

you want to know more about me

2004-09-09T13:04:00.000-07:00

i'm the girl thats sweeping you off your feet

home again

2004-09-09T13:00:00.000-07:00

well i*M at home again, sick. this is rather lame. i slept most of the day. and hopefully i*M Feeling better tomorrow.. because no matter what i*M Going to school. my piano comes in today. yay! and in a hour... school will be out and my friends will be home. this is wonderful. i cant wait because i miss them. and its been only two days. haha. but i miss them all the same. xoxox mckenzie bell

falling forward

2004-09-08T15:00:00.000-07:00

its weird growing up and not living with your brothers and sisters. but this is normal in our society. how odd.

whooop

2004-09-08T11:01:00.000-07:00

my piano comes in tomorrow! yay!

at home sick

2004-09-08T10:20:00.000-07:00

well i didnt go to school today because i am sick. and it is absolutely lame. i hate being sick... but i dont have a runny nose anymore... just a cough and i feel like i*M about to throw up. ohh joyous. my birthday was alright. school was lame... but whatever. emerson made a nice little rap for me... even though it wasnt little, on account it was rather long. my sister came out with us to dinner

to ricky:

2004-09-07T16:33:00.000-07:00

you are ever so sweet.

thanks to

2004-09-07T15:02:00.000-07:00

megan, ricky, larry, jake, alex rust, david, kona, and eddie and jordan for remembering my birthday! you guys rock!! and tristan i <3 you!! thanks for the song!!!

whoa baby!

2004-09-06T14:21:00.000-07:00

ricky is my bitch. =) i was just on the phone with him for like, 3 hours. maybe even longer. whoaaa! haha! well i am going to go study, that way i can go hang out later! yeaaa boy! peace out gangsta! xoxox mckenzie bell

why did i ever let you inside my heart

2004-09-06T13:36:00.000-07:00

me and ricky are SO COOL! people make bets on us! whoo*hoo!

maybe i*M ready to show myself to you

2004-09-06T10:44:00.000-07:00

so last night i went bowling with... ricky and lindsey and alex and jake. (jake is ricky's "cousin") anyhow. ya... we went bowling. i really wasnt hyped up on this idea. i suck at bowling... but hey. guess what?! i got 3 strikes. OHHH ya! fuck yes! hahaha. too bad i didnt even win... but hey. i still got 3 strikes. haha so GO ME! so... haha. we had LOTS of fun. especially sticking socks in ricky

scorcher

2004-09-05T15:39:00.000-07:00

wow. today is HOT! its quite insane. i*M Still a little sick... but i*M loads better from yesterday. yay! so. anyone up for anything today? i*M up for something. lets do something, ya?! my head hurts... i*M going to go lay down or something. maybe play with makeup. =) bye.

this girl is crazy

2004-09-05T13:09:00.000-07:00

xLeTMeBeBadx (1:08:28 PM): what kind of game? Auto response from FoXyBLoNDie56 (1:08:28 PM): lets play a game xLeTMeBeBadx (1:08:43 PM): knowing you it is prooly some sex game xLeTMeBeBadx (1:08:44 PM): lol xLeTMeBeBadx (1:08:49 PM): don't worry mck xLeTMeBeBadx (1:08:51 PM): it is all good haha. megan is so hilarious! i love it!

knows exactly what i mean

2004-09-05T11:50:00.000-07:00

so... last night the weber family came over for a bbq... and haha. that was great fun. lol. we should do that more often... i didnt go to karas... hmm. i cant wait till i drive. and i talked to ricky a LOT last night. for like, two hours. whoaaa! haha. well... i might go to the beach today. i do not know. oh ya... i AM having a party. lalala. ok i am done. bye. xoxox

what a beautiful day

2004-09-04T15:04:00.000-07:00

well i*M finally back home. i*Ve been out all day long. ah! lol. good news of the day... we just bought a piano. grand piano. 5' 5 1/2". its absolutely gorgeous. omgosh! i love it so much. and the keys are wonderful, and it sounds beautiful. oh goodness. this is my favorite thing in the whole world. the men who were working there gave me two books for my birthday. aw. how nice. well... i'm

i love how you can tell

2004-09-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

so. last night me, megan, lindsey, ricky, alex, emerson, patrick, ryan, and jason went to go see the exorcist. now, for those of you who dont me whatsoever... i dont get scared in movies... but i've been told that this movie will scare the shit out of me. so you know... i was excited. i*Ve never been scared in a movie before... and i actually wanted to jump and scream and be oh so scared. well

-headache-

2004-09-03T16:47:00.000-07:00

megan says when you have a headache you're supposed to have sex, not take pills. "it relieves the tension and pressure." its probably been scientifically proven. we should remember that next time i*M around you with one. just kidding. jeeze

natural high

2004-09-03T15:02:00.000-07:00

today was simply fabulous. discussing masculinity in english is quite entertaining.

-lets get drunk tonight-

2004-09-02T18:43:00.000-07:00

mood: something. music: taking back sunday "a decade under the influence" so i talked with my dad today... and i feel so sick. no, maybe not sick... upset, hurt. well no. maybe not even that. oh god, i*M so out of whack, i dont even know what my emotions are right now. and i would talk to him about it, but i dont want him thinking i cant handle this. why do people think i cant handle the truth

its all calypso

2004-09-01T19:53:00.000-07:00

so. its only wednesday, even though it feels like a friday. well, maybe not a friday... but at least a thursday. why are the weeks moving so slow? i cant wait till friday. i have my odd classes on friday. oh how lovely. <3 god, i just read what i just wrote, and i feel like the biggest geek ever. anyhow... i've been writing so lame lately. all i do is write about my day, or just post in song

even all the bad songs aint so bad...

2004-09-01T15:28:00.000-07:00

today i got out of PE, and i was able to TA for mr green. well, he was in a meeting, so i went into mrs green's class to help her out. me and another girl had to file all these folders... our personal portfolios. that was rather entertaining... i saw my portfolio, and i love reading all my old stuff. and i also saw megan's... and i read some of her stuff in her portfolio. lol. i saw harrisons

you and your big dreams..

2004-08-31T20:00:00.000-07:00

its 8, and i am finished with hw, and i am already showered. go me! so today, i actually had a fun day at school. that was pretty chill, on account lately i*Ve been kind of down. megan is flying in tomorrow! yay! i went to golf tryouts today. i suck horribly, but thats alright. golf isnt for everyone... right? lol. dude. lindsey IS pro. if only she were Guatemalan she WOULD be the Guatemalan

i was about to break

2004-08-30T15:54:00.000-07:00

do you ever feel like you have so much to say, but no way to say it?

addictions

2004-08-30T15:44:00.000-07:00

ten random things i am addicted to: 10) drinking diet 7*up out of a straw 9) reading whatever i can get my hands on 8) emo quotes 7) music 6) play dates with friends 5) pink starbursts 4) gum 3) mascara 2) harry potter. 1) the used

dear megan:

2004-08-29T19:48:00.000-07:00

you need to come home cuz i miss my best friend. and i hate school without you there. so get home from florida. if you dont you're going to die because of all the bug bites. yes, i think thats enough of a reason for your parents to fly you out here immediately.

i love you

2004-08-29T01:24:00.000-07:00

you make me wanna lala i n // t h e // k i t c h e n // o n // t h e // f l o o r i*LL be your french maid where i*LL meet you at the door

if you wanna try...

2004-08-28T20:54:00.000-07:00

hmm... my dad fixed my bed today. its like a mountain. i seriously dont remember my bed being so high. i remember it being high... but now its like... mount everest style tall. ya. maybe its just because lately my mattress has just been on the floor... i dont know. whatever. its big now. i also got my sheets and comforter for my bed today. i still need to go buy pillows. hmm... exciting. so

..masterpiece..

2004-08-27T21:01:00.000-07:00

i'm so difficult to paint, you say. the brush strokes cant possibly capture the person inside my shell, you say. i've got wide eyes, but do they show my blinding courage? be sure not to forget the tattered heart on my sleeve. add a few tears rolling down my cheeks for all the years i played the fool. can you paint me nervous and excited and anxious all at the same time? because thats how you make

tomorrow we*LL do it again

2004-08-27T19:36:00.000-07:00

if friday was a place on earth, instead of just a day, i'd suggest "friday" to be a landmark. it really should. people look forward to fridays as much as people look forward to visiting the parthenon in greece. fridays are that huge. i think that after the first week of back to school, the term TGIF actually means something. thank god its friday. i know i'm thankful its friday. if it were

your kisses make me blue

2004-08-27T16:00:00.000-07:00

i*M miserable at school...

dont i look so pretty burning

2004-08-26T15:06:00.000-07:00

thirteen random things you like: 01) the used 02) a good book (definitely if it begins with Harry Potter and the...) 03) a really incredible boy 04) having the best best friends in the whole entire world 05) deep, thought provoking questions 06) socks 07) reading in trees 08) my english class this year 09) playing with friends 10) watching soccer 11) hanging out with my older sister 12) good

this is for my friend...

2004-08-25T15:27:00.000-07:00

happy birthday ricky!

which "someone" are you?

2004-08-24T18:22:00.000-07:00

someone is very proud of you someone is thinking of you someone cares about you someone misses you someone wants to talk to you someone wants to be with you someone hopes you aren't in trouble someone is thankful for the support you have provided someone wants to hold your hand someone hopes everything turns out all right someone wants you to be happy someone wants you to find them someone is

second day of back to school

2004-08-24T15:17:00.000-07:00

music- "escape" -brazil mood- contemplative. today was much more exhausting than the previous day... it was so hard to wake up... ahh! so i went to spanish today, that class seems like its gonna be a chill. i'm not sure... lol. i guess its cool having some people in my class again, the same people that were in it last year. and ya... i*M just going to try to be positive about spanish, because

more insight to me.

2004-08-23T18:54:00.000-07:00

001. What is your full name? mckenzie lee bell 002. Spell your name backwards: eiznekcm 003. Date of birth: September 7, 1988 004. Male or female? female 005. Astrological sign: virgo 006. Nicknames: i have a lot. 007. Occupation?: i am a student. 008. Height: almost 5'6. whoop whoop 009. Hair color: dirty blonde... with a couple different shades of blonde and brown. 010. Eye color: blue

- hopeful dreaming -

2004-08-23T16:03:00.000-07:00

i want a boy to grab me by the arm while i*M walking away, pull me back, and kiss me passionately. how terribly romantic.

what? school is for suckers?

2004-08-23T15:26:00.000-07:00

hmm... so went to school today. and... i fucking hate vista high. i especially hate the administrative staff. fucking bitches. too bad it was hilarious listening to alex fight one of them. haha. i think thats my favorite part of my day. awww i saw tt's hair today. it looks sooo good. at first i didnt even recognize her because her hair is so light now!! gosh, i have to change my whole schedule.

buried a lie

2004-08-22T13:13:00.000-07:00

so.. today is sunday. tomorrow is school. lame. happy birthday to emerson. well i still need to finish my essay... and finally this morning i was able to concentrate. ya. too bad that concentration has been diminished. lame. i dont want to go to school tomorrow. watch me fake an illness. =) xoxox mckenzie bell [reason will not lead to solution]

summers at an end

2004-08-21T11:52:00.000-07:00

so school starts in two days, and i still have a shitload of AP work ahead of me. ahhh... and i*M going out tonight with my sister... jesus... i've got a lot of work set out for me today. last night i ended up hanging out with my sister and her friends... i wasnt able to go over to alex's house because at 5 i was still working on AP hw... and i wasnt able to see harrison because when i talked to

be my peter pan, and i*LL be your wendy

2004-08-20T19:22:00.000-07:00

dont you just wish you could have a fairy tale romance? they seem so much better than real life...

this ones for...

2004-08-20T01:31:00.000-07:00

you're the only one i can think about -tonight-

Harry Potter

2004-08-19T10:23:00.000-07:00

"He looked rather like an old lion. There were streaks of grey in his mane of tawny hair and his bushy eyebrows; he had keen yellowish eyes behind a pair of wire-rimmed spectacles and a certain rangy, loping grace even though he walked with a slight limp." those are two sentences in the new harry potter book, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, that jk rowling has given us to work with for

.::lover i dont have to love::.

2004-08-19T00:59:00.000-07:00

I picked you out Of a crowd and talked to you. Said I liked your shoes, You said, "Thanks, Can I follow you?" So it's up the stairs, And out of view. No prying eyes. I poured some wine. I asked your name; You asked the time. Now it's two o'clock. The club is closed, We are up the block. Your hands are on me, Pressing hard against your jeans, Your tongue in my mouth, Trying to keep the words from

girls night out!

2004-08-18T23:39:00.000-07:00

lmfao. so, us girls havent done anything, with just US, [no boys] in FAR TOO LONG. and yesterday, our plans fell through because of the funeral, and me and megan ended up falling asleep. so, tonight we planned on dinner... and oh gosh, might i applaud us. because tonight, our planning was impeccable. usually, our planning is horrible, but this time it was beautifully constructed. ha. just our

then the world stopped. [or it should have]

2004-08-18T16:34:00.000-07:00

::this is the end of running away:: my devoted reader, this summer, in plain words, sucked. school starts soon. some schools started, and some schools have another week of freedom, but its the season... its back. but it appears that this year, no one is looking forward to school. i know for sure that school is the last place on earth i want to be right now. i'm not sure if it has something to do

its been a long time since i*Ve updated...

2004-08-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

so ya, whats been going on with me? i dont even know... uhhh... lets see. sunday i went over to megan's house... actually jk. i met up with megan at the beach. her aunt susy was down... and eww... her aunt is ya. i dont know. actually i do, but i dont really feel like being mean at the moment. so her aunt was down, and i went to the beach with megan that way she wouldnt be stuck with her aunt all

you dont own a thing

2004-08-15T11:53:00.000-07:00

ya, so last night i didnt hang out with the usual people i hang out with. buuuuut i did go out with my sister, and that was a lot of fun! hmm i love my sister!! but ya, right now i am watching mens soccer for the olympics, iraq vs costa rica. score is 2-0, iraq. so i have to get back to that. ya. because this is intense. and i am getting megan to watch it.

i am tired

2004-08-14T13:08:00.000-07:00

i just woke up. and i went to bed early too. like, 12:30 early. thats over twelve hours of sleep. damn. i*LL be up late tonight. so hmm... last night, the usual six [me, linds, meg, emerson, alex and ricky] went to go see i, robot. ya i guess the movie was alright. the main girl in the movie bugged me. she was soooo... ugh. stupid. will smith said it well, "the dumbest smart person." but ya,

friday the thirteenth

2004-08-13T16:59:00.000-07:00

today is freaky friday. so that calls for the fun. jeeze, doesnt anyone know anything? if anyone knew anything, everyone would be like YES SCAVENGER HUNT! hahaa. i really want to go on one. and too bad if we made it girls vs boys, that would be rather fun. so ya, my vote for tonights plans... SCAVENGER HUNT! oooh scandalous! LOL. -i am in a weird mood- ps. tristan have fun in orange county!

anyone will do tonight

2004-08-12T23:37:00.000-07:00

my devoted readers, well i havent written for a while. just made mention about my day. really, thats all i*M going to do in this post, because i have to wake up early tomorrow for registration. ya, final decision is going to be vista. my friends mean so much to me, and i*D feel like i was leaving them if i went to oceanside. i dont know, sucks i am not going, but at the same time, it would have

i*Ve got a bad feeling about this

2004-08-11T21:23:00.000-07:00

fuck emotions.

held up so high on such a breakable thread

2004-08-10T23:54:00.000-07:00

soooo today i woke up really late. like, 1:10 kind of late. i havent slept in that late, in a really long time. hmm... but ya, it was nice. so i got online, cuz i was like shit... i havent called emerson. so i got online to see if he was on... turns out he was, so i talked to him for a little while, and he gave me one hour... ONE HOUR to get ready. holy crap, thats insane. but hey, guess what. i

ew i feel sick.

2004-08-09T23:06:00.000-07:00

ya, well me and meg went to the movies with tristan and natalie and heather, and jason and jordan and david and john... and ya... funny movie, that harold and kumar thing. hmm ya. but then... we got in trouble because we didnt call my dad... and megans mom came and now everyone is freaking out. ughhhh lame. actually i feel really bad, because i didnt call my dad n stuff, and darlene called my dad

i*M up late... gimme a break. i needed something to do.

2004-08-08T03:57:00.000-07:00

ARE YOU... Straight/Gay/Bi? Straight Single? yup! Want to be? ya, its chill being single. i dont think i*M ready for a relationship... getting hurt sucks. Your birth date: september 7, 1988 Your age: 15 Age you act: psh, older than 15. according to some people, i am a proper young lady. muahaha! Age you wish you were: 21. ohhh ya! Your height: 5' 5" -wow i am short- The color of your eyes: blue,

i love my friends

2004-08-07T23:50:00.000-07:00

today -what a glorious day- i really love my friends. it was great seeing them after a full week. gave them their presents, which they all liked, or at least pretended to. LMFAO. too bad that a lot of the gifts made me laugh, like ricky's woman in a barrel. lol! but ya, idunno what we did anymore. we played cards a lot, went to ricky's and ate dinner there, went back to alex's... walked over to

oh how i love san diego!

2004-08-07T01:41:00.000-07:00

my devoted reader, hello. it's been a while, hasnt it? well, thats due to my vacation in maui. i left the 30th of july, and i returned august 6th. a nice, pleasant, week long family vacation. ha, thats the biggest cock and bull story i've said in the past year. i honestly don't understand why we go on family vacations. its too hard, really, because me and samantha are so much older than our

i*M going to -miss you-

2004-07-29T19:00:00.000-07:00

well, today megan, lindsey, emerson and ricky came over. at first, it was just the best friends and emerson, and we were just hanging out around my house. we played on the trampoline a lot, doing all these flippies... and ya. dude emerson is freaking crazy on those things... he like, does all these crazy flips. its insane. i want to try one of these days. well then we watched euro trip, and

here i am

2004-07-29T00:48:00.000-07:00

i am still rather nervous about flying to hawaii. i still dont like the idea of flying over water, and i've been thinking about this for a while now. but you know what would be the cutest? if a guy knew that you were nervous about flying over the ocean, so they made you a mixed cd of all these songs that reminded them of you, that way you would be too occupied listening to these songs that you

fuck you

2004-07-28T23:01:00.000-07:00

so i finally was able to make it over to megan's house... only to drive in seeing emerson without a shirt, and wearing bright red, extremely short shorts. hmm... interesting to say the least. but ya... we really didnt do much... played some cards, i drove us four over to the school to watch stewart and the little kids shoot off some stuff... ya, and emerson drove us back... and wow that kid

laaame

2004-07-28T15:46:00.000-07:00

well today i was supposed to head over to megan's house again, but my dad wasnt home, and he couldnt come back from work to take me either... so that was lame. emerson said he would come and pick me up, but idunno, i*D feel bad if he came all the way out to where i was, and then drive all the way over to megans. i dont think i like people going out of their way for me. ahh oh well, sucks.

yay for us

2004-07-27T15:41:00.000-07:00

my devoted reader, well, yesterday was an incredible day. maybe on of my top favorites so far this summer... well, around 12:30, i headed over to megan's house because we were all going to hang out over there... so ya, i get there, and i still wasnt even ready, but whatever. me and meg were just getting ready, drying our hair and whatnot, until emerson all of a sudden arrives... and we

sillly me

2004-07-26T12:45:00.000-07:00

i cant quit thinking about him... this... and i really dont know why.

boys.

2004-07-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

haha, so i was talking to ricky, and omg... he is so funny. Richardbakka (10:57:52 PM): so whats new mckenzie FoXyBLoNDie56 (10:58:04 PM): ummm FoXyBLoNDie56 (10:58:09 PM): i dont trust boys FoXyBLoNDie56 (10:58:10 PM): at all FoXyBLoNDie56 (10:58:12 PM): lol Richardbakka (10:58:34 PM): not even me i thought we were freinds FoXyBLoNDie56 (10:59:58 PM): oh ya FoXyBLoNDie56 (11:00:02 PM): i trust

let emotion drain out from me

2004-07-25T18:48:00.000-07:00

my devoted reader, well i am writing again, in a matter of say, 15 hours perhaps? i am not sure if my math is correct, but at the moment i really dont care. i just really want to type and type, and just get everything out. actually, i wish i could do that. because in all honesty, i cant exactly say everything i want to, because i tend to be harsh in some of my thoughts... or there are some

so bored

2004-07-25T03:03:00.000-07:00

i am up late... once again... with no one to talk to. so here goes this fun, joyous thing. the last... person you wanted to punch in the grill? chad person you talked to? chad person you hugged? my dog person you instant messaged? megan person you yelled at? chad person you laughed with? megan good cry: wednesday, july book checked out from the library: our AP history book... hmm i need to

never felt better.

2004-07-24T22:49:00.000-07:00

my devoted reader, i'm writing to you again, about nothing, actually. i guess in all honesty, all i have to talk about is my day. i have no emotions i wish to express, or some long anticipated news to share. thats alright, i guess ..life cant always be the most exciting thing.. today was rather slow, i woke up near 11:30, after falling asleep at around 1:45... and i really didnt do much

forget my name.

2004-07-24T16:35:00.000-07:00

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchanYour name is...Your kiss is...mysteriousYour hugs are...to die forYour eyes...burn into my heartYour touch is...the only thing I desireYour smell is...amazingYour smile is...encouragingYour love is...eternalQuiz created with MemeGen!

-saddest girl story-

2004-07-24T15:23:00.000-07:00

So its safe to say that we've been here before Heart torn out, Down for the count And still come back for more This lesson is learned too well Though only unlearned by the time you wounds have healed Have you had enough? I guess not, 'cause [your lips are stuck to his] Its time to say enough is enough you's be so better off Y o u l o v e h i m but tough 'cause its not coming back from him You

my hearts singing this for you

2004-07-24T01:22:00.000-07:00

I wanna live before I die so don't say I have to cry on one more freezing floor I ask you to open the door and see how things could've gone the reason that it took so long before you could figure out that for so long i was about to break and there were no arms to keep me from harming me and now I'm searching back to see how I never tried to ask for some sympathy cuz no nobody wants to

heres to us

2004-07-24T00:44:00.000-07:00

my devoted reader so today, "the crew" hung out, minus lindsey. yay she comes home tomorrow! but ya, me, meg, emerson, ricky, and alex went and saw anchorman tonight. i think it was much funnier the first time, because the second time, i already knew the jokes and what was going to happen next, so it was just sooo long. i thought it would never end. thankfully, we left early. =) the